Saturday, September 22, 2012

1 Heartbeat

Hello 2011, Goodbye 2011.. Hello 2012!

And that's how it is really with the years going by. Just. like. that. 
2011 started off with a bang for me..For us. We were ready for what was to come. But then, naturally, life threw us a curve ball. Dreams shattered and plans were never realized. God decided he had other plans for us. 

Everything happens for a reason they say. No one can see the logic in why certain things happen, when they do. Honestly, looking back at these past events, I still cannot pin-point or understand why. 

God said welcome to the rest of your lives. We were back at zero. So many plans simply came to a halt. 

After suffering from heartbreak and loss, one forgets how to go on living a normal life. How do you go back to being normal? You just don't. How do you move on? You just do. But as a different person. I think a part of me died that day. I do thank God for fuzzy memories in times of distress. You can never forget the day or what happened but God spares you "some" of the painful details.

When I was 11, the worst day of my life was when the teacher was going to tell my father that I'd been very rude to her.
When I was 17, the worst day of my life was missing a friend's birthday because my mom wouldn't let me go. 
When I was 20, I got splashed by a passing bus and cursed how I don't have a car. Worst day. 
When I was 22, I left the country I loved and wasn't able to go back till a few years later. The day I left was the worst day of my life, September 15, 2005

As time went on, there had been even worse days than those mentioned.
How trivial all of this seems now. 

27 April 2011 was the worst day of my life, for I am the face of loss. 
That loss has a name. Lara. I love you.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Something's Wrong With The World Today..

Don't you agree? Aren't things going haywire? Wars? But that's old news.. Internal wars? That's also old news, but what with "Fall of the Tyrants" fad? Ar they now thinking "But everyone else is doing it!" ??

Unfortunately, I am not fully aware of what these country leaders had done (or had NOT done) for their countries so I'm not able to say "Down with the tyrant!!" like everyone else. I am a mere observer of what's going on. I am not going to protest infront of that country's embassy, demanding that their leader is removed.. I've never been to that country, so what would I know about what the people have been going through. The only thing I agree with though is that, sure, this president, shouldn't have remained a president for this long. 30+ years?? Really?
What made them wake up? Were they planning it all this time? Those youth groups? The Islamists? Who?

Okay, so it happened. Regardless of whether it required prior planning or they just jumped into it head first.. It happened. Wasn't casualty part of the equation? Didn't everyone know people will die? That life will be lost? That the sweet taste of the so-called-freedom they're longing for, won't come easily? I'm sure they knew.. What they didn't count on though, is a certain leader's reaction. Waging war on your own people. Will that put them in place? Does that prove you're really crazy Mr. President? What is really going on behind the scenes. I don't know.

To me.. on a personal level. I cannot connect to all of this. You can't say "Well how would you feel if this were happening to you?" - Well, you know what. It's not happening to me. If it were then, I'd be in the middle of it obviously. All what this does to me is remind me of God.

Is this domino effect a sign of the apocalypse? Has it been foretold by the Quran or the Sunnah?
I can't find it anywhere. I wish I knew more. I care about what all of this actually "means" than the fact that's all happening. I care about preparing myself to meet my maker, which doesn't seem like a distant thing anymore. What am I doing about it? Nothing.

Why did my father ever promise that judgement day (Yawm Al Qiyameh) will not happen in our lifetime. :-


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Blast Off!

I would love to come back to this. I would love to remember how to change fonts, insert links and photos and change the whole appearance of my blog. Customize it more.
I would love to remember how to edit it the Html! I used ot do by heart. That I would love to.

Monday, December 31, 2007

What Was Supposed to be My End of Year Inane Ramblings 2007.....

...Has now turned to lyrics.. I had JUST typed a long note that took 30 minutes and deep thinking.. lol That doesn't normally happen.. And I lost it!

Lesson No. 1 : Always use WinWord to type anything, notes, emails, long posts.. then Copy and Paste.. You will not lose your work! (Yet, I'm still typing it here on the FB page!)fft..

Listening to this song this morning, SunScreen by Baz Luhrman triggered this feeling and the previous long-lost note.. Why? Because I remember I had first listened to it in 1997-98..on tape.. I was 15.. And it hit me that we're in 2007.. Well, right around the end.. But yeah, you know what I mean..

How time passes.. How years go by... They just run run and run.. Years don't really look over their shoulder to check if you're catching up or not..They don't care..No one actually does really.. I don't mean to depress any of you.. Some people might not feel the same way, or some might have this feeling with other events and occassions.. But, New Year's and Birthdays do this to me.. They remind me that I'm getting older. They also remind me that everyone around me is getting older as well... My dad, mom, brothers and loved ones.

It depresses me to know that it’s been 8 years since I’ve graduated from school…3 years since I have from University and have been working for a year now..

It also depresses me to know that I’ve only gained weight and not lost any the past year, which means my resolution remains unchanged (How typical!)..That I haven’t learnt a new language, I haven’t gone to the gym, I haven’t traveled much… However, I do appreciate that I wake up everyday knowing that someone cares about me and loves me.. :)

I don’t know what your 2007 most significant moments were, but I know mine was definitely meeting my other half.. As long as it’s personal, it counts.. and it’s your moment!

Happy New Year everyone! :)




My favorite parts of the song’s lyrics,

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will notunderstand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself andrecall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay beforeyou and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.


Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimesyou’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only withyourself.


Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if yousucceed in doing this, and tell me how.


Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.


Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with yourlife…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what theywanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 yearolds I know still don’t.


Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybeyou won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funkychicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – yourchoices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.


Enjoy your body,use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other peoplethink of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..


Get to know your parents; you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.


Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on.


Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people youknew when you were young.Don’t expect anyone else to support you.


Maybe you have a trust fund,maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either onemight run out.


Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.


Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.

Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way offishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more thanit’s worth.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Long Time No See

I'm not sure what exactly made me come back to this.. I think I just missed it.. I paid it a visit and read some of my old posts.. I actually enjoyed reading them! So why did I quit to begin with?

What no time? There's PLENTY OF TIME! Nothing worth writting about? Now, that's not really true.. My friend Jawaher Jewels who's able to update her blog almost everyday! Bless her, she always has something to say.

I guess I was just occupied..with life? with friends? Well, to update you on what's been going on recently.

Career -> Finally working! But I think it's only temporary, something better is coming on the way..Hopefully! What do I do? Well, I work with an event and PR company, an event coordinator is what they call me.. lol Highly funky innit? I think I'm on the right track!

Family -> Well..They're all grown up now.. Someone is almost finishing school. Someone is almost graduating from college and someone's not really sure what to with the rest of his life! lol The father is just fine.. Same old really. But I must say OUR relationship is so much better this year than whatever passed! Cool.

Friends -> New ones are around, old ones are still around..Havent eliminated anyone. YET. Might do so, or maybe I already have..
There are definitely keepers. The past couple of months were really tough on me, friends/relathionship wise, I think I lost a friend. Or should I say, she lost me?

Love -> Aaah.. L'amore. Erm..Well, let's just say it's complicated. But isn't it always? Difference is, how each of us would deal with it. You're wondering aren't you..? Well. I admit, there is some love in the air. I'm just hoping that balloon doesn't pop! :-

Me in a nutshell. Life has been good to me lately. What about you?

Thursday, February 01, 2007


Tagged By Solidus

What will happen to your e-mail when you die?

What?! I'm gonna die?!

Did you try once to give the password to someone? If yes, what kind of relation that you have with this person to trust him/her and give him/her the key of your secrets?

Nope NEVER! But... my brother found out what it was and hung on to it! LOSER! well, no really I'm the loser for NOT changing it!!

Your famous nickname among your Friends?

Deenz, Don Don Khella, Nina (lol?) there's also Donz

Your age?

Twenty Freeeee! (23)

Your horoscope?

A Saucy Virgo

Your qualifications?

I can juggle saucer pans standing upside down while dancing to Justin's Sexy Back.. lol Hmm.. No mental picture picture please, it's humanly impossible....

Your character "personality"?

Erm..Fun loving caring naive daft cool funky crazy kind animal lover insane mature silly childish ...etc etc

What travel means to you?

THE WORLD! - Also something else, but If'd tell you, you'd shoot me... :p

Your time out of peak

Go out , Party, Internet, Read, Eat :p

What do you purchase?

- Food
- Food
- Food
- Accessories
- Food

Features taken from your dad

- Height
- Nose
- Toes
- Hair

Features taken from your mom

- Hair
- Fingers
- Eyes

The most 6 things you hate

1- Obsessing about weight loss
2- People who don't like animals
3- People who don't like reading
4- Gossiping
5- Spelling Mistakes
6- Hate (Funny this one)

The most 6 things you love

1- Cats
2- Food
3- Music
4- Guys
5- Traveling
6- Daydreaming

What job means to you

What is job? :p

What computer and internet mean to you

Connecting People!

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