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Hello 2011, Goodbye 2011.. Hello 2012!

And that's how it is really with the years going by. Just. like. that. 
2011 started off with a bang for me..For us. We were ready for what was to come. But then, naturally, life threw us a curve ball. Dreams shattered and plans were never realized. God decided he had other plans for us. 

Everything happens for a reason they say. No one can see the logic in why certain things happen, when they do. Honestly, looking back at these past events, I still cannot pin-point or understand why. 

God said welcome to the rest of your lives. We were back at zero. So many plans simply came to a halt. 

After suffering from heartbreak and loss, one forgets how to go on living a normal life. How do you go back to being normal? You just don't. How do you move on? You just do. But as a different person. I think a part of me died that day. I do thank God for fuzzy memories in times of distress. You can never forget the day or what happened but God spares you "some" of the painful details.

When I was 11, the worst day of my life was when the teacher was going to tell my father that I'd been very rude to her.
When I was 17, the worst day of my life was missing a friend's birthday because my mom wouldn't let me go. 
When I was 20, I got splashed by a passing bus and cursed how I don't have a car. Worst day. 
When I was 22, I left the country I loved and wasn't able to go back till a few years later. The day I left was the worst day of my life, September 15, 2005

As time went on, there had been even worse days than those mentioned.
How trivial all of this seems now. 

27 April 2011 was the worst day of my life, as I became the face of loss. 
That loss has a name. Lara. I love you.

Something's Wrong With The World Today..

Don't you agree? Aren't things going haywire? Wars? But that's old news.. Internal wars? That's also old news, but what with "Fall of the Tyrants" fad? Ar they now thinking "But everyone else is doing it!" ??

Unfortunately, I am not fully aware of what these country leaders had done (or had NOT done) for their countries so I'm not able to say "Down with the tyrant!!" like everyone else. I am a mere observer of what's going on. I am not going to protest infront of that country's embassy, demanding that their leader is removed.. I've never been to that country, so what would I know about what the people have been going through. The only thing I agree with though is that, sure, this president, shouldn't have remained a president for this long. 30+ years?? Really?
What made them wake up? Were they planning it all this time? Those youth groups? The Islamists? Who?

Okay, so it happened. Regardless of whether it required prior planning or they just jumped into it head first.. It happened. Wasn't casualty part of the equation? Didn't everyone know people will die? That life will be lost? That the sweet taste of the so-called-freedom they're longing for, won't come easily? I'm sure they knew.. What they didn't count on though, is a certain leader's reaction. Waging war on your own people. Will that put them in place? Does that prove you're really crazy Mr. President? What is really going on behind the scenes. I don't know.

To me.. on a personal level. I cannot connect to all of this. You can't say "Well how would you feel if this were happening to you?" - Well, you know what. It's not happening to me. If it were then, I'd be in the middle of it obviously. All what this does to me is remind me of God.

Is this domino effect a sign of the apocalypse? Has it been foretold by the Quran or the Sunnah?
I can't find it anywhere. I wish I knew more. I care about what all of this actually "means" than the fact that's all happening. I care about preparing myself to meet my maker, which doesn't seem like a distant thing anymore. What am I doing about it? Nothing.

Why did my father ever promise that judgement day (Yawm Al Qiyameh) will not happen in our lifetime. :-

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